"lets kick, push, and coast"

Oh Meaghan. I could never, ever be mad at you for taking a long time to respond. You've got so much other stuff to do on the seas and in other countries and are having the experience of a lifetime and it's completely understandable if it takes a while to respond. And I don't want you to ever feel bad for not being able to physically be here for me in this time of duress because you have nothing to feel bad about. It's not like I felt like I couldn't write you immediately and tell you, because I did. The only thing that sucked is that you were the first person I wanted to call when I heard, and not being able to was frustrating, but it was okay.. I got a hold of the rest of Team Adrienne anyway via phone and heard from you a day or two later. I know we'll grouse about this bigtime when you get home... but for now, I seriously just want you to enjoy your trip and your life and everything. Besides, I have your itinerary bookmarked, and I know right now you're roughly 12 hours ahead of us, so I know when you're on the ocean and will be be responding versus when you're somewhere and probably won't be for a while. Like right now you're in Japan, and it's.... either almost midnight (and therefore Sunday) or almost 2AM there, I can't remember. So I know you'll probably be writing me back Tuesday or Wednesday, when you're back on the ship. And maybe I'll hear from you a few times while you're on the sea during the next few weeks because you've got lots of time between stops. I can't believe you only have 2 left until you're docking in Miami. This semester for sure has flown by for me and I'm sure even faster for you.

Right now as I'm writing this I'm completely fried but I can't sleep - men's floorset was last night (9PM and it ran until 7:30AM) and I woke up like 10 minutes ago and my body just doesn't want sleep for the time being. I've got another one tonight but it's all good, you know how much I love doing those. I've been so proud of my work at AE lately; the last few blogs I've written have been specialized topics but I haven't exactly updated you on like... regular life. Here goes.

I quit Barnes & Noble because AE offered me full time! Well, as full time as it gets - 30-35 hours a week, which, for their store, is HUGE because I'm not a lead and sales associates just DON'T get those kinds of hours. Unless they're me - guess who is their Employee of the Month? Haha, yeah. I'm awesome. Seriously... they're working on promoting me, for sure, and frankly that would be fucking awesome. My one manager, the cute one who is 22, told me that he's pushing SO hard to make it happen. It was hilarious the one night - he called me at like 11:30pm ranting and raving about how one of the other leads narcked on him to our store manager about something stupid and he was like "I just need to know you have my back, I swear Adrienne, I will make you a lead and get you a fat raise, you're amazing, just be on my side about this." It is SO WEIRD how I get phone calls like that at this job, but whatever. The dynamics of that place are so bizarre.. I need to explain it to you in person. (I'm too dazed to try and explain it now.. I wish I could sleep!!!) But... it's just weird. Like.. I sometimes forget that I'm like... employee of the month awesome... and just do my job the way I was taught... and then I get ridiculous praise for whatever I'm doing. It's so bizarre to be recognized for something that I pretty much just feel is like.. commonplace.. but, whatever, if it gets me in good standings with the company and a promotion and everything.. awesome. I'm DEFINITELY transferring to an AE in Pittsburgh this time around, since I don't have a long distance boyfriend to work a schedule around, and duh.. I love the company and want to stay with it. I've made some awesome friends through this job, both in New York and Allentown, and maybe I'll make some awesome ones at the store in Pittsburgh.

The dogs just ran into my room because it's thunderstorming outside and they're terrified. Dogssssss!

Speaking of friends, I'm pretty sure that once we all get back to Pittsburgh, I'll be cool with everyone again. I think a fucking 8 month break from them will do the trick, not to mention I'll be living with you and Jessy and not them. They're staying at 367, which is excellent, because there will continue to be 367 parties, and of course some 254 parties as well :) I'm really looking forward to next semester. I just registered yesterday for classes so I am officially set. I'm basically using this semester to knock off the rest of my gen-eds because I still don't know what I'm going to do about this double English major situation and how I can't do it. I had a pretty ridiculously awesome idea the other night... what if I just like... owned and managed a nightclub for a living? Wouldn't that be awesome? You know how much I love to party and how much I love it when other people are having fun and I just feel like... I could be happy doing something like that. But then there's the whole mess of finding a management study program and switching into it so late in my school career and asldguo;iwej;awjg. It's just something I've been giving some thought. I definitely do want to take bartending classes somewhere next semester though, and you should take them with me. We could be awesome bartenders together and make excellent drinks wherever we go. Or I've been thinking about seriously just staying with AE and moving up through the ranks and eventually getting my own store... I think I could be happy doing that too. I just don't think I want to be sitting in front of papers and reading for the rest of my life. I feel like I'm suited for the customer service business and watching myself succeed at AE and ENJOY my job.. like legit enjoy it.. is something I don't want to let go of.

As for quitting Barnes and Noble, I'm actually legit bummed about it. I have met some seriously amazing people while working there and I really, really hope I'll maintain those friendships. Meghan and John I'll be friends with regardless, because we hang out so much already, but there are a lot of people there who I haven't hung out with much outside of work and would definitely like to. A bunch of us got together and went to the diner the other night and it seriously was just laughs ahoy for like 2 hours straight over decaf coffee and mozzarella sticks. I think we're having another party next weekend in which I will get completely plastered and it will be fabulous. I am also going back to Allentown next weekend for Passover with our Jewish familyfriends... it's going to be interesting, to say the least. I haven't been to Allentown since the fateful last time I ever saw Adam and... as;ligut;woeigjalskjgs. I'm just trying to be positive about it. I get to go to SHEETZ, and Chris's diner, and see some close friends, and stop into AE at the LV Mall and see all my friends there... and it will only be for one night, so if the pain starts to bolster, I'll be leaving in no time. The only thing that's a bummer is that my parents are officially closing on our house on Carole Lane that weekend.... meaning.... I officially, OFFICIALLY will have nowhere left in Allentown to call my own. We are selling it to my mom's friend though, which is nice... but man, it just sucks. New York has been AWESOME to me and I'm starting to really love it here and feel like I have a place here, and saying goodbye to Allentown is just.. part of the process. I feel like.. I have succeeded so thoroughly in what I set out here to accomplish, and technically I'm only halfway through the time that I plan to spend here. I'm so tempted to stay, Meaghan. How ridiculous is that? I never, ever thought that I'd feel happy enough here to want to stay. My friends keep begging me (sort of jokingly) to stay, and a part of me wants to. But I won't - I WANT to go back to Pittsburgh. I love our school and I love our city and I love all the promise that it holds for next semester. I love the fact that we're living together and I won't pass THAT up for the fucking world. It's just.... a fucking weird, yet amazing, situation.

I have been listening to a lot of Lupe Fiasco and watching a lot of One Tree Hill... the first I'm okay with, the second I am completely ashamed of. Haha. But Meghan tricked me into watching it because Pete Wentz and Fall Out Boy were on a few episodes and after watching those... I was hooked. Oh man. No good. I also got a new phone.. it's a Samsung orange slider phone. It's pretty fucking awesome.

As for life... you know... whatever. Been talking to Ryan a lot more than I expected to. I actually texted Eric too about the Adam and Alyssa news and he's been really nice about it. I told him I'd be out in like a month, when you get home, and he goes "Do I get a big kiss when I see you?" Oh Eric. Probably. Haha. I have been battling in my mind whether or not I'll sleep with him if I'm put in the position - part of me just doesn't fucking care and part of me is like... seriously, Adrienne? You'd do that? We'll see. What do you think???

I just want you to come home and to turn 21 and for it to get warm out so I can go to the beach a lot. It was a gorgeous day the other day and I got sent home early from B&N so I went home, spread out a blanket and read in the sun for like 2 hours. It was so glorious.

Britt facebook messaged me about Adam and Alyssa and basically said something along the lines of "this news makes me want to start a war for you." I'm glad to know that pretty much everyone EVER thinks this situation is fucked up. I'm wondering what like... Dom thinks of it, if he even cares. Specifically him I'm wondering about because I feel like everyone else probably thinks its definitely wrong, but Dom is so wishy washy when it comes to just about everything that I'm curious to know what he thinks about it. Lord knows I'll never ask him. I also got a facebook message today from Adam's BROTHER Elliott asking how I've been. That made me smile so hard. He must know how hard this situation hit me and usually Elliott is oblivious to stuff like that; it made me feel a lot better just seeing the message from him.

Oh God, as for you? Meaghan... can I just tell you that sometimes in your messages you'll say stuff and I'll just die laughing, like legit LOLing. Drinking scotch and Coke in McDonalds? Are you SERIOUS? You're fucking insane and I love it because as ridiculous as that situation is, I could so easily picture myself sitting there at the table with you, partaking in the ridiculousness. AND YOU'RE GETTING A TATTOO???? WHATTTTT?? Describe it to me immediately. I am so intrigued by tattoos and would love one myself but I will never be able to decide on what I want haha. Are you gonna get it while you're still on the trip or get it afterwards to commemorate it? I hope you can get it while you're on the trip. I feel like that would be awesome, like "Hey check out my lifelong souvenir that I got Semester at Sea!" Haha wow I'm retarded right now. Your comment about Kevin making you feel discombobulated made me die laughing. It's funny how boys can have that effect on people. The stock manager at work, Daryl, can have that effect on me too. He's like my big brother with the way that we interact and joke around with each other, and he gives me life advice all the time, but he's a lyricist/hiphop artist and freestyles ALL the time and so I'm always begging "Daryl, rap for me!" and when he does, he is SO. SEXY. Like.. wow. Haha. And that always discombobulates me too, because I usually have a big smile on my face while he's rapping like a fangirl and usually I like to think we're on the same level as far as interacting goes. He's rapped about me before (and my supposed coffee addiction that he won't let me forget about) and it's just like... YOU. ARE. SEXY. Too bad he's 28, is AE's stock boy for a living and lives with his mom. LOL.

I can't wait to hear about your adventures in Japan, because it will be the last like COMPLETELY RIDICULOUSLY foreign country you'll be in. RIDIC!! You'd better have awesome club stories for me. I'm wondering how NYC clubs will measure up to foreign clubs for you. But the first thing we're doing when we hit a nightclub for my birthday is requesting Please Don't Stop the Music. That's right! I need to dance to that with my lover, aka you. I was thinking it might be really fun to invite Eric and Griffin along one night as well. Even though the birthday celebrations will extend all week. I still have to plan the whole shindig - since my birthday is on a Tuesday, we need to find an awesome bar to go out to on Monday night that will be full of males willing to buy a girl in a 21 tiara drinks all night. Haha. And just to confirm - I will be requesting off the 9th-11th of May to come see you. If I have to work that Thursday night I might just hop in the car after work and drive out that night to avoid traffic entirely and I'll get to Sellersville at like 1:30 in the morning. Hahahahaha. LIFE. I'll probably leave Thursday regardless because a;sdlijgpoweijgsjl I MISS YOU AND I WANT TO SEE YOU AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. Just one more month babygirlllll!

Live the fuck up this next month, and kick ass at life (but that's your default setting, because you're always kicking ass at life, at least in my opinion because you're amazing). And I just want you to know that your last response made me feel so much better about the Adam Alyssa situation. Just knowing that I have someone out there as devoted to our friendship as I am is fucking amazing. One of the biggest life lessons I've gathered from this experience is to be devoted to the people in my life who don't give up, and you are one of them. I'm keeping you forever. No arguments.

PS - I have a random gift or two for you as well :) I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!

"come and skate with me, i'm just a rebel looking for a place to be
so let's kick, and push, and coast"