"back to the street where we began...."

"when all you feel is pain,
& somehow things have changed,
i'll be coming....
i'm coming home to you."

meaghannnnn. i love love love you. and i can't believe the powercord to your laptop died... uh LAME!!!!! too bad you're not still in china where you could pick up a super cheap one. and also my heart is going out to you right now because i can only imagine how upset you must be with just a few days left on your trip... ughh babe :( i wish i could jet out there sooner to see you but hey come a WEEK FROM WEDNESDAY i'll be getting up and driving the fuck out to pennsylvania and we can do whatever you want. maybe we can go run around philly for a day or out to allentown to egg alyssa and adam's cars (they'll be home that weekend) or fuck maybe we should just drive the fuck out to pittsburgh for a night. i still think you should come back to new york with me - i'm for real throwing a party on friday the 16th cause my parents will be in san diego and you know how i throw down and i want you to be thereeee. as it turns out you can take the amtrak train from nyc to philly or wherever so that will be your means of getting to and from me.... and i'll help you pay for it. i just know how much you don't wanna be home so feel free to come play on the island with me that weekend. even though i'll probably have to work, this house is super huge with a super huge television and you can watch all the dvds that you bought that won't play on your laptop...... yeah anyway :)

i don't have anything else to say really, the last week and a half has been pretty ho-hum since most of my friends are finishing up school and are buried in finals / endofsemester papers and whatnot, so they haven't really been around to hang out. i've just been working my tail off (i just deposited a $500 paycheck - HOLLA) and not much else. i managed to finally unpack all my shit from pittsburgh and i now have a box of adam's stuff in my closet that i pretty much never want to touch or look at again. i also had to do FIVE LOADS OF LAUNDRY to get all my clothing clean and i managed to put away 4 of them and i have no more room for the last load. like my dresser is full and i don't know what to do. its in the dryer right now, i'm going to fold it and then i don't know what. but i have lots of clothes i've bought over the last few months, plenty of new stuff for you to borrow :)

other than that... i really just can't wait to see you. i have your mixes made and i just have to click "burn" and write up the playlists. there's a show i really want to go to tomorrow night, its this band called metro station and one of the guitarists is apparently miley cyrus' older brother.. but the band is awesome, and i can't find anyone to go with me and my parents don't want me going alone. fucking LAME. i probably shouldn't spend the money on it anyway but honestly.. i just wanna see some live music, man. and as for you laughing at me about warped tour.... meaghan, can we say gym class heroes, academy is, cobra starship, say anything.... pretty much all the bands i've been listening to these last few months. so yes i totally wanna go LOL. i know, i know, i'm 15 on the inside, but.. whatever. haha.

so yeah, i can't wait to hear your costa rica stories. from reading both your blog and your private emails to me all semester i can kind of tell from your blog when you have secret drunk stories that you're just not sharing, and i have a feeling you've got some about costa rica haha. i unfortunately have no drunk stories of late to share. i'm hoping things will get more interesting in the coming weeks. my friend colleen turns 21 on thursday and i think we're going out to a cafe that night for her birthday (so they'll let my lame underage ass in) so hopefully that will be a good time. i have less than a month until my big birthday so i'm fucking excited. i told my parents i wanted a hotel room in nyc for my birthday at this unbelievably swanky hotel in manhattan called the hudson hotel. we stayed there for our nyc graduation trip with all the jews and its pretty much a sweet spot so hopefully that will happen and obviously you'll be my companion for that situation (and of course you won't have to pay for it so no worries). its got an AMAZING bar in it thats renowned for its nightlife so.. fuck, man. haha. its going to be nuts. i don't even care if we stay at the hudson anyway, we could stay at the holiday inn express for all i care, but i asked for it cause its smack dab in the middle of manhattan and its fucking SWEET. who knows if it'll happen. all i know is that you're going to be here for like 4 or 5 days and i can't. fucking. wait. i'm trying to plan where we're going to go and such and i'm trying to find a bar on the south shore for one of the nights so we can be drinking AT THE BEACH. YAYYYY. and of course we'll go to the beach for reals too.... oh man thats whats neat about living here.

yeah so.. that's what i've got for you. i don't expect to hear from you in the next few days because of your broken laptop and honestly i'd rather you spend these days drinking the rest of your trip in deeply instead of writing to me about how much you're going to miss it. if you're gonna write, write in your journal haha! i brought mine back from pittsburgh and i've been writing it in it a LOT, surprisingly. i missed it, its like the only book i feel comfortable writing in, but i'm weird like that. anyway..... i have off the whole day of the 9th (for now, anyway, god knows i'll probably get a phone call from them asking me to come in) so if you get a minute that day, call me ! definitely text me at least, you know i'll return that in a heartbeat. and i LOVE the fact that you're going to be rebellious and sneak into restricted ship areas. my question though is why do you need to sneak somewhere restricted to see the stars? is it cause you wanna be somewhere private instead of just on deck where lots of other people are? just wondering. but you know you get my thumbs up for rebellion.

i love you kid. i'll see you IN A WEEK and talk to you even sooner than that. live it upppp babygirl <3

ps - i found a new band called The Cab and you're going to LOVE. THEM.

"you cant say i didnt give it
i wont wait another minute
we're on our way this time around
& we wont go down"